Dear Diary! 17.01.1797

In the last time I really often thought about the death. I think there is a own heaven for us kings. Because we are a little bit better than other normal people, but than I thought that it wouldn´t be the best because then I will never see Derek again. This would be very bad. The life after the death without Derek can´t be a good life. Olga don´t have to be in the kingheaven but if she will be also there it is okay. I want to get bury in Saint Petersburg. I hope that a lot of people would come to my funeral.

Yours Stani